brokeness

I spent this easter weekend in Altona at my parents place. I enjoyed getting together with friends alot, but spending time with my family was not so great. If you don't know my family situation, well maybe someday you should ask me. I consantly felt like I wasn't good enough there and didn't know who to be. I went to church with them today and felt that I had to fore myself to stay. I just wanted to run out of that Church. I saw university students had come home and they brought their boyfriends with them. Great, I thought, and look at me. What am I doing with my life? Not much. It was pretty discouraging being there. I'm now back home at my place, but I still feel broken. I want to help my mom, but I don't know how. I feel trapped in a shell and I have no idea how to get out. Yeah, that's my life right now, please pray for me.